I felt the more I did, the more I accomplished and the more I accomplished the more I became. Every time an opportunity arose I saw it as a way for me to establish myself that much more. And it didn’t matter how many babies I had during that time, I still allowed that lie that told me I was never enough to run my life.
This episode is packed full of vulnerable moments about life before our marriage, sex, failures, misconceptions, and unbelief. In this message, I bear it all from my life before marriage to the many struggles me and my husband faced as young newlyweds and soon to be parents.
I often feel like I'm suffocating in my own mess, you know the physical kind of mess. The mess that is endless piles of laundry, dishes, and diapers; the mess that reappears suddenly after every clean up.
We are allowing ourselves to drown in disqualification because we simply compare ourselves to the best life of someone on social media. But let me tell you something, what you think as an imperfection, the Father see's as a tool of perfection to glorify His Kingdom.
Can I just be honest with you all? It's true. The fact of the matter is...sometimes I just really like the way a swear word sounds rolling off the tongue. It feels so good! Especially when I'm angry; there is just nothing like the way a swear word feels when your angry.
Rest is essential for your well being; Not the, pop down on the couch for a hot minute while your two year old drinks his chocolate milk kind of rest though. I'm talking about the kind of rest that truly rejuvenates your spirit, leaves you filled up, and ready to take on the next day. THAT is true rest.
You know those tiny squares that we constantly look through each day; the squares that make up thousands of beautiful pictures, each possessing some version of timeless perfection. Ya, those. Today, as I scrolled through them I couldn't help but feel a pang of jealousy rise up inside me as I scanned the room before me; seeing a mound of unfolded laundry, beside it, a combination of miscellaneous toys that in no way belonged together and snack wrappers, and dirt.
When I look back on this year, I am astounded by God's goodness, I am undone by His grace, I am overwhelmed by His love, and I fall to my knees when I think about His kindness. He is so so kind friends and when I think about 2017, all I can think is "only God."
As a mom, there are a few things that are essential to making life easier; ONE of them being wine...ok, I'm kidding, I'm kidding! But for real COFFEE...alright for real now, all jokes aside. A GOOD DIAPER BAG is ESSENTIAL!
But then one day...I wake up and it just hits me. There's no warning, no sign, nothing. It's just there... like this sudden heaviness is over me from the minute I wake up and I can feel it creeping inside me; it starts in my head, like a fog it clouds my ability to think clearly and clutters my ability to think logically.