We are allowing ourselves to drown in disqualification because we simply compare ourselves to the best life of someone on social media. But let me tell you something, what you think as an imperfection, the Father see's as a tool of perfection to glorify His Kingdom.
If you've been following my Instagram stories lately you've seen that I've been struggling with this whole "influencer" game. Over the past couple of months as I've dedicated my mornings to hearing God's voice I began to feel a shift within me.
Have you ever been in one of those seasons where you just have no idea what you're doing? Like you're sitting around, with the full expectation that something great is about to happen but you have no idea what it is? And while you wait, you have no idea how to prepare or know what you're even supposed to look for?
When I look back on this year, I am astounded by God's goodness, I am undone by His grace, I am overwhelmed by His love, and I fall to my knees when I think about His kindness. He is so so kind friends and when I think about 2017, all I can think is "only God."
I was challenged by one of my best friends to know more about what my anxiety looks like, when did I first realize I had anxiety and if I believed it was getting better or worse since truly acknowledging its existence in my life.
This is a little bit late for me to be posting a blog but this past week we traveled up to my hometown in Southwest Michigan where we stayed in my childhood home for a week and I finally got a chance to edit all my pics!
HELLO MONDAY! This weekend Guy and I had the chance to get away for a 24 hour period and travel up to Chicago to attend a wedding for a lifelong girlfriend of mine. We we're so excited to be able to get away just the two of us (after all it was our first overnight alone since before Eliza was born) and this yellow dress was the perfect wedding apparel for the perfect summer night!
I wanted to start these "Happy Monday: What I Loved About This Weekend" posts as sort of a journal for myself in years to come but also because, I think we so often "miss" all the little moments when we are so focused on trying to capture the "BIG" ones.
I've teamed up with mama/photographer, Cristi Balke and Suz, shop owner/designer of Sew Sweet Clothing over on my Instagram to give one lucky winner this beautiful handmade tropical floral t-shirt dress.
For the last couple of months I have been dealing with my this restlessness way down deep inside of me; over and over again I question who I am as a wife, who I am as a mom, and who I am as a person, and to no avail, I continue to draw a blank. I question my purpose and the legacy I'm leaving. I question my chaos and the passions that I so longingly seek. I question if what I'm doing is enough and if there's more I could be choosing to do. I question why I can't just be content to be a mom, why do I always feel like I have to be doing something?
I'm not about to get all political in this post because God knows we've got enough of that going around on Facebook (good LORD). However, I would like to address one of the rather "trendy" topics to hit the viral internet world since the election and that is the topic of the millennial generation! Ohhhh yes! That's right, I'm going there.
This is the first year in the last 3 years that I have sent out a Christmas card and I feel so on top of my game! As a kid my mom always put together such a lovely card and then would type up a letter to go with it explaining the "happenings" of everybody in the family. It was a great way to recap the year and now looking back, serves as a great way to remember forgotten memories of the past.
So I recently whipped out my sewing machine that I receieved as a gift for my 13th birthday when I thought I wanted to be a fashion designer. That phase quickly ended when I tried to make myself a purse out of an old pair of jeans. Probably the WORST material to try to learn "how to" sew with. So long story short...it's been in storage for the last 12 years!
This past week we traveled to Michigan to spend the holiday with my family. Thanksgiving is by far one of my favorite holidays. It's the one time of year my entire family reunites for a day full of eating, touch football, and apple crisp.
If you're a mom and you haven't heard about Freshly Picked, then you aren't living! This company is the reason why I am able to cut my "getting out the door" time IN HALF! No joke! We might have a slight obsession with them, if you can't tell! :)
If you've been keeping up with our little blog, you may have remembered a fun video that we made a while back for this family known as "The Bucket List Family." When we began our "vlogging" journey a couple months back we discovered this family of 4 (Garrett, Jessica, Dorothy(3), Manilla (2)) that sold everything they had to travel around the world. Each Sunday they post a new YouTube video updating family and friends about where they are and what new adventures they've been on that week.
To be honest with you guys, it's been a while since I have had the courage to sit down a write just to write; there's no real explanation really. I often blame it on the season I'm in or because I don't feel like I have much to say. But in reality, I have plenty to say; it's just every time I sit down to say it, I'm bombarded with my many insecurities.
If you don't know anything about this amazingly adventurous family, let me just tell you a little bit about them (because I'm telling you, you are going to want to cyber stalk them PRONTO!). So in short, they're this young family of 4 from Utah (kids: Dorothy-3, & Manilla-1) that decided to sell basically everything they owned to go and travel across the globe.
I have nothing left to give and I need strength to get through this week. If you think of our little family would you please send up a quick prayer of agreement that there would be healing and restoration brought to our family.
I follow big name bloggers and small name bloggers, all just trying to get their voices heard...me being one of them. With hundreds of thousands of people trying desperately to get noticed everyday you can just about imagine the shock in our eyes when we heard about the Instagram algorithm change. People were/are literally freaking out over this social media shift and they have good reason to.
I know what you're probably thinking...ANOTHER big announcement?! How in the world could they have ANOTHER announcement to make. Just shut up already Kirby family! But the truth is...this really IS a big announcement that I've been holding onto for a couple weeks now and I could not be more excited to finally share it with you all!
Have you ever had that feeling bubble up inside of you...that feeling that disgusts you, and humiliates you all at once? It happens unexpectedly, slowly even. It changes your mood, your demeanor, and your hearts posture. But how can you be feeling this? It's wrong, it's selfish, so why can't I seem to shake the bitterness growing inside of me?