If you've been reading my blog the last couple weeks you may have noticed my families deep love for this family known as The Bucket List Family (we first made a video for them HERE) and if you're just popping onto my blog for the first time, let me fill you in a bit.
The Bucket List Family is this family of 4 that sold everything they owned to travel around the world with their 2 small kids. Each week they make a YouTube video updating their family and friends on their whereabouts and activities (you can find their YouTube channel HERE). Since beginning their adventure around the world, they have picked up great speed and have become a HUGE YouTube sensation all around the world. Suffice it to say, WE have become HUGE fans.
ANYWAYS...this past month they announced they were giving away a trip to one family to travel WITH them to Dubai. To enter in to win the contest you had to create a one minute video telling them why you think your family should be picked to travel with them. Soooo...we of course jumped at the opportunity to join them on this amazing excursion (you can see our submission video HERE) and we were pleasantly surprised to find that we had become finalists!
We were beyond excited, like beyond BEYOND excited; Telling our family members and friends that we could possibly be traveling overseas in the next few weeks, going on an adventure like no other with a family that we truly look up to. I mean, we honestly felt the Lord in all of this. Like He felt this deep growing passion in our hearts and was creating the perfect opportunity for us to experience that passion. Our little family of 5 going on the adventure of a lifetime! It couldn't have been more perfect.
Yesterday morning I woke up with this feeling deep in chest, and immediately knew that today would be the day that we were going to find out if we were chosen. I went about my regular routine and continued life as usual but again and again, I kept feeling that weight. Around 3 pm I hopped on my email and there it was...the subject line read: "Dubai Update." My heart instantly jumped out of my chest...I zoomed through the first sentence when I saw it...
"Unfortunately, it's not going to be with you guys this time."
I literally felt my heart sink...like I think it dropped to the ground. I read that line over and over and over again; still trying to grasp what it was saying. "...it's not going to be with you guys this time." It's like I was reading it but it wasn't making sense and in that moment I felt so many different feelings: disappointment, relief, frustration, relief, bitterness, hopelessness, RELIEF, gratitude. It was weird. I really REALLY felt like it was going to be us, I could tangibly feel it in my bones. So to hear that it actually wasn't, shook me. I know this probably sounds SOOOOOO stupid and self-absorbed to so many of you. Even as I say it out loud it sounds stupid to ME.
But here's the thing...this family, OH MY GOSH this family you guys! They've given me hope! They've given me a new perspective of life. Like not just, oh hey, traveling would be really fun but like OH HEY! WHY AM I NOT TRAVELING THE WORLD RIGHT NOW??? WHY AM I NOT DOING EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO SEE THIS BIG BIIIIGGGG WORLD? See the difference? No? Well, my point is, I have been dreaming WAYYYYY too small. I have been thinking even smaller. It's like all the sudden every fiber of my being is standing on end with excitement at the prospect of doing something so outrageous and so liberating; experiencing something for the first time, and witnessing God's creation in all of its glory.
I know I found this family for a reason and I know I will meet them someday. And I know that this growing passion is not all for not; there's a big BIG reason behind the stirrings of my heart and I'm clinging to that hope right now because I'm sad. I'm not going to lie, yesterday was rough. After the disappointing news my husband and I just kind of moped around the house the rest of the day spouting off mean things to each other and refusing to manage life appropriately. Hurt people hurt people and we were hurt.
We're trusting that when God closes one door, He's opening another and we honestly believe that this is just the beginning. We are on an incredible journey and there is still so much more to be discovered. Until our next BIG adventure we will be saving our pennies and praying BIG prayers to make that happen! Thanks to everyone that watched and even shared our video. Your support means more to us than you know!
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