The Truth Behind My Blog
I don't really know where to begin but for the first time in a month I have finally felt the need to write about something deep from the heart. If you haven't noticed, I took a short leave of absence the month of July and for a good reason. Well... I have many reasons for why I decided to stay silent this past month and I appreciate all of you that have come back to read and stay up to date with all the happenings in the Kirby household.
But to be honest with you, I have had to stop and ask myself many times this month just why I started blogging in the first place. I started to lose sight of the purpose of this platform and began thinking about all the ways I could grow followers and up my pageviews and how I could start making money blogging and truth be told, all that did was create a whole lot of self-pity and envy. I started comparing myself to the "big-wig" bloggers and doubting my voice amidst the thousands of other meaningful messages out there and I stopped believing that I had anything good to say.
So why? Why am I even blogging? I've heard this question many times, from so many different people. A lot of the time people think that I'm over here making a ton of money blogging so that's why I'm doing it. But in all reality, that's not even close to the truth. I currently make no profit from blogging and have no idea when I even will. I'm still trying to figure all of that out. So back to the question...
Before I even started blogging, I had never read a blog in my life. They never appealed to me and I had no idea that they created such an opportunity for story telling and vulnerability. So when the Father asked me to start a blog in 2014, I was thoroughly confused. But here's what I learned.
I have always had a passion for people (women mainly) to step into the roles that God designed them for. And after becoming a mother and experiencing how isolating and intimidating motherhood can be, I found it imperative to seek out just what it is that makes me happy and gives ME life. You see, I got sucked into believing that just because I became a mom that there was no longer room for me anymore. And that thought alone created a battle within my own spirit between what made me happy and what I thought should make me happy. You see?
I believe that every women, at every stage of life, should be able to follow their passions. Because why? Those passions, those desires, those talents, were given to you for a specific purpose, for a specific reason. And they are meant to be used! How often do we hear that you should never become a musician or an artist because few make it and it almost never puts "food on the table."
But what if you love it? And what if you have a concrete passion for it? And what IF you're really good at it? Why not follow it? Why not chase it with everything you have? Because the Father made you and He purposefully put those desires and passions in you so that you could use them for His glory. How selfish of us to put aside the things we love and the gifts that God has given us because we are afraid that society is going to deem us unsuccessful. It makes us "dreamers" that can do only that...dream.
But what I say to this is, BA-HUMBUG!!!!
So THAT'S why I blog. THAT'S why I stay up into the night and write. THAT'S why I hire photographers to take pictures of my family and my projects. THAT'S why I saturate social media with my life. So that ONE person will read the words I have written and be encouraged and empowered to live the life that God intended them to live; to finally stop worrying about what every body thinks and start focusing on the gifts God has given them.
I think all the time how much more favor would be poured out onto each individual if they were just doing what they were made to do and not what they were "supposed" to do. It's silly. It's SILLY that we care so much about what every body else thinks about our occupation, about our career, and about how much money we make. And it's infuriating to me, to think that we can't just be ourselves for fear of what we won't be.
As I grow in this whole blogging thing, I have found that it's very easy to get sidetracked and it's very easy to start comparing yourself to all the other talent around you. But one thing I want to make sure that I stay true to, is my first calling. I want to help empower and equip each and every individual that reads my blog. I want to real, honest, vulnerable, goofy, sad, sarcastic, and cheesy...I want to be ME!
So it's your turn...I need your help. I write about a lot of things: personal, product reviews, DIY, and home improvement. But I want to know...what do YOU like or want to hear about most? Do you want more product reviews, more personal posts, blogs on fashion, faith, home decor and DIY???? What? I want to be real with all of you in who I am but I also want to write content that YOU want to read? The more I hear from you, the more you'll hear from me! So lay it on me people! Comment below or comment on my Instagram!
*Photo by: Alisa Nicholle Photography
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