People keep asking me about how life is now that I have three children so I thought I'd blog about it because...why not!?
Let me just start off by saying that I have been wanting to blog about this for quite some time now so that may give you some what of an indication of how my transition is going...but in all honesty, things have been going surprisingly better than I had anticipated. If you remember my sort of freak out moment a couple weeks before Eliza was due (see post here), you know that I wasn't exactly ready for life with three.
I was so concerned about giving up my routine, my life, my energy, and my passions that I lost sight of the true miracle that a new life is. Granted...I still miss a lot of those former things but I truly feel such a strong sense of peace throughout the chaos.
That being said, the Lord is totally teaching me about patience, I mean... being TRULY patient; Not the kind of patience that comes when you put your kids to bed and they suddenly have a million other things they have to be doing, but intentionally waiting on the Lord to move in the way He said he would. Now THAT is a totally different kind of patience.
If you know my husband and me, you know that once we start something we have a hard time stopping and we recently had a harsh reality to face when it came to checking our hearts on the topic of patience.
This spring we got the opportunity to do another large partnership on a deck remodel and we were all set to go when we found out that because we were taking too long we would no longer be able to go through with the collaboration. In that instance, I felt I had failed.
How could I blow it like that? Why were we wasting so much time? What was holding us back? I totally just screwed up a great partnership and now they are never gonna want to work with me again!
All these thoughts rushed through my mind and I became angry and emotional and hopeless (and probably way to over-dramatic about the whole situation); I mean we were seriously crushed by this news. This would have been another major opportunity and we lost it. We were a little embarrassed by the whole situation so we waited a couple days to share the information with our families and when we did they reminded us of something so humbling.
"Well you guys did JUST have a baby. There's not a better excuse to have then that!"
And there it was, something so major as bringing a life into the world got foreshadowed by a deck project??? What was so special about a deck remodel anyway? It wasn't for a couple of weeks that I honestly started feeling relief about the whole situation not working out. Instead of having another huge project luming over our heads we actually got to take a break from all the DIY activity and just rest in all that we already had accomplished.
Sometimes all we do is rush and rush to get things completed and lose sight of the things going on in front of us; the things that truly matter. And for Guy and me, that happens all the time. We are constantly battling the urge to start another project or fix another imperfection. And not all of that is bad, but the lesson that God has been teaching me over and over again is that we have to have patience through the imperfect messes in life in order to witness the beautiful potential that comes when we wait on Him.
There have been many instances in which I just want to take matters into my own hands and start moving on the things He's promised me, when I'm quickly reminded that His ways are far greater than mine and His timing is never off.
So how is life going with three?
Challenging, sweet, chaotic, stretching, and tiring. I rarely get a minute to myself and my "me" time has turned into netflix binge watching while I nurse Eliza. But I will say, the transition to two was so much harder!
I know this is only a season and so I've been trying to embrace all the moments in between but I appreciate all of those that have popped in along the way to see how we are doing. We are truly grateful for all the support and love we have received over the past two months. Eliza Joy is an incredible baby and we are so blessed to have her in our family.
As always, thank you for taking the time to stop by!