I always knew I wanted to be a young mom. A lot of people look at me like I am crazy whenever I tell them that but I'm not afraid to own it. From the time I was a little girl I remember telling my mom that when I grow up I wanted to be a mom just like her. For some reason it just felt natural; comfortable even to dream of being a young mother.
Although I didn't know if it was truly going to happen, I would day dream about finding my husband, getting married young, and starting a family together. It didn't seem impossible to me since I watched my parents raise a family while they were young (married at 19; parents at 20). For me, it just seemed like a fairy-tale that I was destined to live.
Although as I entered into my later teenage years, I began doubting that "destined" fairy tale could actually come true. When I entered college, I would go from practice, to class, to practice, to study hall and wonder endlessly if I had met my husband along the way. I would grow impatient and envious anytime I heard teammate or classmate talk about their boyfriend and how they knew they were going to get married after college. It was such a dream of mine, yet I wasn't the one living it. I look back now and laugh at my squeamish self; seeing God's perfect timing in it all.
Today, I get asked all the time what I would be doing career wise if I wasn't a stay-at-home mom and my answer is always the same. "I have NO idea." I remember having little vision in college of what I wanted to do after I graduated because I always envisioned myself being a "mom."
That probably sounds extremely weird to a lot of you but that's the only way I know how to best describe it.
It wasn't that I wanted to be a mom in that specific moment but my desire to raise up children was as real to me as someone who desired to become a doctor. Make sense?
Well...if you know our story, you know that God answered that dream by allowing me to not only get married to my "knight in shining armor" as a junior in college but become a parent as well. Following graduation I became a full-time mommy...at least, I chose to become a full-time mom. I know a lot of people don't understand that...especially the ones that are my age who maybe can't afford to stay at home or the ones that don't know why I'm not "using" the very expensive degree I earned.
But all I can say to that is this...regardless of our financial situation, being a stay-at-home mom was more than just a desire in my heart, it was something that we decided (after much prayer) would be best for us and that we were going to make work, whatever that looked like for us.
Sure I could have gone to work to after Rozalyn was born, especially because Guy still had a year left of college, but for us it felt more important that I raise our family right now. It didn't mean that we didn't have to stretch ourselves in a lot of ways financially, it didn't mean that I was "living the dream" that I always thought I would be; it just meant that we had to put a lot of our trust and faith in our Heavenly Father and believe that He was going to provide in the ways we couldn't.
I am in no way shaming all you wonderful working mothers out there. You are an inspiration to me in more ways than you know! Keep up the good work...you are making a difference! But if you are a young mom that can relate with this in any way I would love to hear your feedback on how being a young mom changed your life in the comments section below.